When reality hits you

Will an offspring help me cope
with the knowledge of you being gone?
That’s what many people say
They keep on living thru their child
and the memory shall never die
Tears are burning in my eyes,
the knowledge of your mortality just sprung to my mind
It’s painful and it’s sad,
I will have to go on without your there
I know there’s still many years to come,
but the thought of it keeps coming up
I guess my own ageing is a reason
Me questioning my own way of life
I do believe you will still be around,
but not to hear your voice to calm me down,
makes me wanna scream out loud.